Longing

Longing for ease. Longing for flow. For adventures on the go. Longing for confidence, competence, and congruence. Yet enjoying paradox, won’t be put in a box, want to be free like a fox. Longing for normality, tired of debility, yearning for capacity. Longing for variety, accessibility, more activity. Yearning for more energy. More curiosity, connectivity,…

First impressions, self awareness, and judgement

Do you recognize the situation of cheerily walking down a street and when passing by a gloomy person, your mind goes: “What a grouch, doesn’t she realize how lovely life is?” Or another day, when you’re particularly happy with you’re outfit, you just don’t understand why some people don’t seem to care at all about…

New shoes

I often feel like I’ve outgrown the current version of myself. Like I’m wearing shoes too small for me, and I’m getting chafed feet. There comes a lot of frustration and pain with that. On the other hand, when trying on a bigger size, it becomes clear, that I haven’t grown enough yet, that I…

FEELING versus BEING

This morning I woke up feeling like the shittiest person who’s ever lived. It doesn’t of course take a lot of reflection to realize that that simply can’t be true: I haven’t started wars, I haven’t tortured anyone, locked someone away, starved someone, nor have I ever consciously abused anyone, physically or psychologically. So, that…

Hibernating

I have started writing this post several times, only to stop after a few sentences,  feeling a strong sensation of “not yet”.   I am hibernating, you see. If possible, I would surely have spent the past two months or so hiding in a cave somewhere. Well, if I truly had had the opportunity to…

Happy new Year

Sometimes, I feel like a duck, calm on the surface, but paddling like hell underneath. It’s only when I notice that I’m actually not moving forward, that I realize that the paddling is not happening under the surface at all, but only going on like crazy in my head. Looking back on the (almost) past…

Vacation and other breaks

I’m good at taking breaks. Sometimes, I’m even wondering if I’m too good at taking breaks. Not today, though. This may sound absurd, but today, first day at home after vacation, I feel it would be really beneficial to push the pause button. I’ve been away for three weeks. In the raw and beautiful north…