Armor off, poncho on

I once read a quote that said something like: “If you’re walking down the street feeling like people can see right through you, you’re doing it right.” Meaning, as I interpret it, that living life without having our armor(s) on, shows us that we’re on the path of living life authentically and vulnerably. That we…

Lucky Woman

I’m a lucky woman. Truly privileged. I am surrounded by men and boys who call themselves feminists. Who want to co-create a world where men and women have equal rights, possibilities, and personal FREEDOM. Despite my husband’s best intentions, it definitely wasn’t quick and easy, and it surely didn’t happen without heated discussions. It took…

Change the grey, with a gift a day

A little more than a month ago, I decided to give a gift every day for a month. Not only because I enjoy gift giving, also as a way to shift focus from problems (inside of me) towards compassion (for people around me). Yet another reason to try this out, was simple curiousity and a…

Amor Vincit Omnia

My heart is bursting with LOVE. I had planned to write this post for your birthday, on Sunday. A birthday, for which I had planned a nice excursion, you and me and our boys, just as in old times; and in the evening, friends coming over for Raclette. Yum! I was going to write about…

From mind-FULL-ness to mindfulness

There’s this famous Zen story where a Buddhist scholar is visiting a Zen master with the intention to study under the master. On arrival, the visiting scholar starts talking about all his knowledge and insights, and he goes on and on. The master listens patiently and then starts to prepare tea. When it is ready…

Monkey Mind

I’m so tired, I’m falling asleep when reading. Just as my doll. It is true, these past weeks my body has felt tired and heavy and instead of  walking just normally, it feels like I have been dragging it along, against its will. And it definitely doesn’t feel like I have neurons firing in my…

A gift A day

Inspired by an article* I recently read, I have decided to give away one thing a day, every day for a month. The experience is said to be transformational, starting with creating a shift in focus from one self, to how to make someone else happy. It needn’t be something big, or something you bought,…

A stroke hits hard

When meeting acquaintances on the street or in the grocery store, and they’re looking at me with kind, big, compassionate (sometimes pitying) eyes, asking how we’re doing, I tell them: “There are no words which could even come close to describing our current life. Not the difficulties and struggles, fears and exhaustion, but neither the…

Moments of anxiety

Lean in to the difficult emotion. Don’t try to suppress it, or to wave it off. Stay with it. Where do you feel it in your body? I want to run and hide. Okay. Take a deep breath. Now, what do you feel in your body? There’s a big lump in my throat. Makes me…

Vacation and other breaks

I’m good at taking breaks. Sometimes, I’m even wondering if I’m too good at taking breaks. Not today, though. This may sound absurd, but today, first day at home after vacation, I feel it would be really beneficial to push the pause button. I’ve been away for three weeks. In the raw and beautiful north…